i'm scared. even though it's just a thought -- i'm scared.
we're a few months away from our 3 year anniversary and it looks like he's going to try and lose some weight during that time in order to comply with military standards. i hope he doesn't try to join the air force before our anniversary, because he'll definitely be away from me when that time comes. he went to find an air force recruiter on thursday but they were out of the office, so he ended up speaking with a navy recruiter. though nathan spoke to a navy recruiter, i won't have to worry about him joining the navy because he doesn't want to get put on a ship. ship or no ship, it'll still result in a considerable amount of time apart from eachother -- and i'm not looking forward to that.
after dwelling on the thought of nathan + air force, i was bored and googled "my boyfriend is thinking of joining the air force" and results came up on yahooanswers (yea.. not so reputable but it's got opinions from random people) and the main post was by some girl in a similar situation that i'm in: girlfriend is a college student, boyfriend and girlfriend have been together for 2-3 years.. etc. people told her to chill out and if she really loved the guy, she'd stand by him and support his drive to join the military. other replies also included that with the military comes sacrifices, so if she wasn't willing to put anything on hold for him or to hang on until he comes back and gets situated, then she needs to leave him now. someone said that if they got married, then the air force would help pay for his and her college as well as provide other opportunities for the two of them. the thought of a secure future sounds wonderful, especially with a lot of companies downsizing and falling apart. obviously, there is a severe lack in job security and the military seems to be one of the best options for the moment. it's just a question of who will be elected president; i hope everyone i know that is considering the military waits after this election to jump into the military idea.. because mccain supports the military and obama does not.. we'll see.. whatever.. unfortunately i have no say in this election because i was stupid and didn't register on time.
my parents were proud that nathan was considering the military, and i know i am as well -- it's just thinking about being away from nathan for so long drives me insane. i'll have to deal with it.. because i can't see myself with anyone else but nathan. i just don't know how to handle if he gets stationed somewhere random and i'm stuck here .. i hope he can get stationed in langley if he really does join. blah this sucks
i love him
..i don't want to lose him :(
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awww.. i know completely how you fell.. JACOB went through this last year.. he was certain he was going to join the Marines.. but some shit happened to him but hes thinking of going back to school in Jan ..if school doesnt work out for him guess. what. hes joining.. but after the election hah. but yeah you and Nathan are made for each other.. i know you can do it thousands of people and couples do it too... it will be hard and really suck at sometimes if he does go with it but with it comes alot of benefits and if you 2 get married your striaght. im sure everything will be okay ..im with Jacob as much as you are with Nathan and it depresses me thinking what the hell am i going to do i will miss him like crazy but time flies by when they are gone.. .like jacobs sister.. she is 19..her HUSBAND of 2 years just got deployed out to sea and the DAY after he left she found out she was pregnant! ..ah. but he will be back in 8 months just intime before their baby is born...just imagine what she is gonig through..so ther are a lot worse situations im sure by the time nathan is done with the military or for however long he is serving you will get your degree and you 2 will be set! =) just think on that for a lil bit ..i miss you xtiney! <3 killa k
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